An adjustment period

by Veronica on January 28, 2013

in Headfuck

I’d forgotten just how miserable adjusting to antidepressants can be. Some things flew out of the window, despite my promises to myself that they wouldn’t. Writing being one of those things, sleeping another.

I twitched and worried at things, paced around the house constantly, played with my children, laughed and smiled, before collapsing into a heap on the couch with a small tired baby and a series of books [these ones this time].

It’s easier in a way and harder. I feel disconnected and a bit discombobulated, but it’s easing and I can feel my head and my sanity trickling back in. Which is nice, frankly.

Some things are harder to deal with. I have no appetite and have to force myself to eat. My mouth is dry constantly and I have electric shocks behind my left ear, which has also, strangely, gone numb. My teeth ache because I keep grinding them and my ability to type comes and goes, depending on how distracted I am at any given moment.

That’s okay though. The depression is lifting and I’m happy to be me again.

Pixie January 28, 2013 at 1:22 pm

Hang in there.

Hugs

Sharon @ Funken Wagnel January 28, 2013 at 2:02 pm

Glad to hear you’re happy with it:)

dharawal January 28, 2013 at 5:06 pm

hang in there sweetie. *hugs*

river January 28, 2013 at 5:37 pm

I have medication dry mouth too, mostly at night, it’s horrible.
I’m glad the meds are helping you though and I imagine your appetite will return once you stabilise more.
I think you should see your doctor about your ear though.

Matthew January 28, 2013 at 8:41 pm

The first time I read “some things flew out the window” I read it literally. :)
Glad to hear the meds are working (side effects aside) and that the depression is lifting.
“Every life is a pile of good things and bad things. The good things don’t always soften the bad things but vice versa the bad things don’t always spoil the good things or make then unimportant.”

Marylin January 28, 2013 at 8:50 pm

You’re getting there honey. Not long to go and they’ll be fully in your system and you’ll be feeling much more like yourself.
*hugs* and love sweety xxx

Watershedd January 28, 2013 at 9:23 pm

Hang in there, Veronica. Thinking of you. X

katesaysstuff January 29, 2013 at 12:05 am

So glad things are moving along Veronica.

I found the dry mouth thing passed after a month or so. Was so glad when it did too, not nice. These days I just get random dizzies which is way preferable to beig unable to function ;)

xoxox

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