Comments on: Something Ends, Something Begins

By: Hyphen Mama

Hyphen Mama — Sat, 21 Jun 2008 03:50:24 +0000

When I conceived Wynnie, it took being off the pill for one month and exactly 14 days after my last period started, BOOM, there she was. I had a psychic reading on that 14th day and she said “Today is the day. You’re ripe for the picking” I hadn’t told her I’d been counting days and already knew it was the day. She told me to light a candle, ask the soul to “come, baby come” and make it happen. It happened. One shot and it happened.

When I decided it was time for Mack, I was so stressed out over other family members in my life, it just didn’t happen. I was absolutely heart broken. Every period was a slap in the face. Every beautifully bumped pregnant woman in the grocery store was a slap in the face.

I was broken.

My voodoo dr (I say that purely in jest) told me I had to get over the stress before the baby would come. I had psychic readings saying that souls are literally AFRAID to come into this life on Earth at this time… be patient. It finally happened. Then at 19 weeks we had a scare that we’d lose him. There was nothing they could do to help him. I wept.

All of it is so extremely hard. Creating life… so fucking hard. So heart breaking. What the hell is god thinking?

I want so much for xbox4nappyrash to get pregnant. My heart breaks for them. I hope desperately that it works for them. I cannot imagine the emotional pain they experience every month when it doesn’t happen.

Adoption? China? There are gorgeous girls there who have been given away… abandoned. I know people who have adopted from China. Nobody gets one… they go back for a second. So many girls at my daughter’s preschool are from China. Those unwanted, discarded babies. I’m so glad somebody can give them a safe, wanted home. I cannot in my soul understand how it happens, but thankfully it does… for those who cannot achieve parenthood any other way.

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By: Annie

Annie — Sat, 21 Jun 2008 03:11:22 +0000

Hi Veronica,
I’ve been ‘lurking’ here for quite some time now. There has been many times I’ve wanted to comment, times when you’ve hit a certain emotion in me and I’ve wanted to share my opinion, yet I’ve always held back. I don’t blog myself, nor am I TTC, pregnant or have children. Yet I’m drawn to you the same way I can’t miss an episode of Neighbours.
And so I’m getting on my soapbox because I know that one day soon, I will be ready to start TTC, and I can only imagine that if I were ever in the same situation as you, trying so hard for so long (regardless of having have a child already or not) that when I did finally fall pregnant I would be exploding with happiness and wanting to shout it from rooftops! Actually, I’d probably be like that if I conceive first go.
So to think that when the dictionary meaning for blog is “An online diary; a personal chronological log of thoughts published on a Web page. Typically updated daily, blogs often reflect the personality of the author” and that you would ever hold back on ‘blogging’ about your feeling and experiences out of fear of hurting others, or not feeling like your opinions are valid, it just about breaks my heart!
I want to hear every last little detail, good or bad. I don’t want you to hold back because it’s your uniqueness and own story that makes me say “I wonder how V is doing today” and visit here every day to peer inside!
As Marie said, you deserve to be happy about being pregnant and feel relief about no longer being part of the TTC group, and you deserve to blog and comment about it!

By: Nan

Nan — Fri, 20 Jun 2008 09:45:37 +0000

WOW Ronnie, I think that is the best piece you have written, I am very proud of you,
Lots of Love xxxx oooo

By: Marylin

Marylin — Fri, 20 Jun 2008 09:30:25 +0000

Great post Ronnie. I sometimes feel bad when I'm whinging and moaning about my boys, or because I wish I could have more... I'm so lucky to have my two happy and healthy boys I really *shouldn't* be complaining at all should I? I love hearing about how you're going pg-wise, but I can totally understand why you don't want to talk about it all the time here, expecially when it's still pretty early days! ((hugs)) Marylins last blog post..Wordless Wednesday

By: river

river — Fri, 20 Jun 2008 06:40:29 +0000

Nothing to add here, they’ve said it all. Morning sickness settling down yet?

By: Just a mom

Just a mom — Fri, 20 Jun 2008 06:16:26 +0000

I HAVE ONLY READ THE FIRST FEW LINES,,, I WANT TO SAY TO YOU THAT YOU HAVE TO ENJOY AND BE HAPPY FOR YOU AND EXPRESS YOUR FEELINGS FOR YOU ,, YOU WRITE HERE ON THIS BLOG FOR YOU!!!!! sorry for hte caps lock I am thrilled for you and any other person who gets their wish,, I ma also sorry fo rthier loss or their not yet joy but I will go to their blogs and tell them!!!! love the ultra sound down there look at that little sweet thing good luck and keep smiling!!!!!!

By: Jill

Jill — Fri, 20 Jun 2008 05:14:00 +0000

I am one of those secondary infertility gals… been TTC for almost 2 years now… several miscarriages, a few D&Cs, the whole works.

I can only speak for me… but I am one who appreciates hearing from those who have been down that path, however short or long it was. I don’t shy away from stopping by people’s blogs who are pregnant or who have recently had children. As sad as I am for me… I always love reading a good story about someone else positive experience… who had success and got pregnant.

I hope that my luck will change in the near future. Until then, I’ll be reading and sending wishes along the way.

Jills last blog post..What Does $1281 from Costco and $1069 from Target Look Like?

By: Widdle Shamrock

Widdle Shamrock — Fri, 20 Jun 2008 03:50:54 +0000

I get you !!!! You have put into words stuff that was buzzing around ma widdle brain. Am thrilled to bits for you !!!! Widdle Shamrocks last blog post..Musings ~ Luck of the Draw

By: Deb (Missives From Suburbia)

Deb (Missives From Suburbia) — Fri, 20 Jun 2008 03:43:32 +0000

You are so much more eloquent in response to XBox's post than I was in his comment section yesterday. It is a very raw topic still in our house, and I walk on eggshells around people who are struggling, because even though we felt like we did, I understand what you mean when you say you feel like a fraud. Very, very well-put. As for crayons, they're the washable kind, so I think they'll just come right out. Lucky me. Deb (Missives From Suburbia)s last blog post..Spring Is Officially Over

By: Sharon

Sharon — Fri, 20 Jun 2008 03:21:28 +0000

Beautifully said Veronica.