When your baby stops breathing. Also, she can’t swallow.

This is Evelyn, aged almost twelve months old.

Yesterday we saw a speech pathologist for the first time, to discuss Evelyn’s eating difficulties, and her choking episodes.

Last week, Evelyn choked on saliva, and stopped breathing briefly. I did standard first aid, smacking her between the shoulder blades when she truly couldn’t breathe and holding her closely while she wheezed, coughed and finally vomited.

It wasn’t the first time it’s happened, and it wasn’t the last time either.

She can’t swallow lumpy textured food anymore. I don’t know what changed, but something did and bam, the baby can’t swallow. It’s possible her throat is spasming and preventing the swallow, and thus she’s learned not to try. She likes tasting new food, she chews well, she doesn’t have a problem with different textures in her mouth. But she can’t initiate a swallow properly.

The upside here, of course, is that she breastfeeds well still. Although, milk comes out of her nose during the feed, and apparently that’s a bit of an issue.

Our speech pathologist is waiting to consult with our Paediatrician, and then a barium swallow study will be ordered. After that, we’ll work out what to do next, where to go from here.

I’m trying not to think too hard about Evelyn right now, as her body refuses to work the way it should. I’m hoping that time, and therapy, and building muscle strength and memory will help with these issues, but deep down, I am worried about her, and about the new issues that are popping up and seemingly getting worse.

She choked last week and stopped breathing. She. stopped. breathing.

I hope we can get a plan in place ASAP.