Author: Veronica

  • Exhausted, mentally, physically

    I had to walk up the road (200m) this morning to discuss an incident in which a neighbour’s dog killed a bunch of my baby chickens. By the time I got back, I was exhausted. It’s not a strenuous walk – the road is flat and easy. But my foot fell apart as I limped home, unable to quite work out which bone was out of place.

    Yesterday I had one ulcer hiding in the bottom of my cheek. This morning, both sides of my mouth are ulcerated. My skin is breaking out, my brain is foggy and I am Tired and Run Down.

    The school holidays were wonderful, but I’m wrung out. I need a week of laying on the couch reading books, drinking chicken soup and doing nothing.

    My joints are flared, my shoulders keep falling out of place and I am feeling like my blood pressure can’t work out how low it wants to fall.

    Look, this happens every few months. It’s actually been a while since I felt this terrible, and it’s nice to have had a break in the middle from the see saw that is my health.

    But today I feel crappy, and exhausted. I have things I need to do, I have things I want to do. I have children to feed and watch and play with, but uuuuugh.

    Sleep.

    School is back, which is a bonus. Isaac began Kindergarten last week, and his first day went amazingly well.

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    I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t looking forward to this week, with 2/3 of my children at school, and Evelyn still napping regularly.

    Hopefully, I can rest, recharge, and stop feeling like I’m being pressed into the ground by the sheer weight of the exhaustion I have.

  • Your twenties are not a practise decade.

    When I first started working, I spent money indiscriminately. My then-boyfriend (now husband) and I were living in a tiny shoebox unit in the middle of the city, and spending money made us happy.

    Useless objects, littered around our house. No thought for the future.

    We were young, and growing up seems oh so far away when you’re 17 and 23. Who needs to save money? One day in the future, we’d be grown ups and things would magically work themselves out.

    Isn’t this the fairytale we’re all taught? That our twenties are only practise for our “real lives” which will start at some undetermined point down the track.

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  • Counting down the minutes.

    I’m counting down the days, hours, minutes.

    Tick tock tick tock tick tock.

    Wednesday, Amy starts grade 2. Thursday, Isaac begins Kindergarten.

    Then, dear Internet, I will have somewhere in the realm of fifteen hours a week with only one child at home. I am pumped. I am stoked. I am carefully working out a regime of eating alone, drinking cups of tea and reading books.

    It is going to be GLORIOUS.

    I’ve thoroughly enjoyed this school holidays, but I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t a little mentally exhausted. Everyone keeps asking me questions and expecting intelligent answers from me, when all I want to do is sleep for a month.

    It hasn’t helped that Evelyn was sleeping terribly. Waking five-six times a night, wanting boobs, screaming, fussing, tossing and turning. She was getting molars, but come on, enough is enough.

    But, just quietly, she’s stayed in her own bed nearly all night for two nights running. Only needed one breastfeed at 4am.

    And I am feeling much less exhausted. Waking three times a night is easy, blissful in fact, when compared to double that amount.

    (I am writing this and Isaac is playing Minecraft: “Mummy! Come here! YOU NEED TO SEE! Another skeleton dropped a bow! COME AND SEE.” You can see why I’m exhausted. I am also not walking the length of the house again, to see a minecraft bow, again. Again again again.)

    So! School. Going back. Beginning. A new chapter. One toddler at home. One toddler who NAPS. Naps, people.

    It’s going to be great. Fantastic, in fact. And after Easter, there will be even MORE alone time, because Isaac will learn to catch the school bus with Amy and angels will sing, choirs rejoicing at the extra hour I have to Get Things Done.

    Of course, Evelyn will probably end up terribly bored and sit on me for the entire time her siblings are gone, but I’m remaining optimistically dreamy.

    SCHOOL!

  • Reading, reading more, reading better

    Home by Larissa Behrendt

    I read a lot, eagerly consuming books as fast as I can download them. Anything and everything, I’m not a fussy reader.

    Of course, I have my preferences – I’ll choose Urban Fantasy over a mystery, and a mystery over literary fiction. I love my kindle, I love the Book Depository, I’m never happier when I stumble across a book sale, or second hand books being given away.

    So when Anita Heiss published her Black Book Challenge, I expected to have read at least a few of the books.

    No.

    Not even one, I’m ashamed to say.

    It’s ridiculous, because clicking links and reading synopsis after synopsis, they are amazing books one and all. But because I rely on discount books, word of mouth recommendations and things I find in second hand stores, I’d missed every single book on the list.

    This is my challenge for 2014 – to read at least 20 of the books on the list, possibly more depending on finances. Because they’re not mass market paperback, they’re not cheap, but I’m treating every single book as an investment.

    With information coming out about plans to change the school curriculum, and the way history is taught, I feel it’s important my children have access to stories which tell of what happened when England invaded Australia, and the atrocities which followed over the next two centuries.

    It’s a dark history. Shying away from it, and refusing to teach our children the truth about how our country came to be won’t change what happened. And frankly, history is schools is already woefully inadequate, and Aboriginal history is even worse.

    I’m hoping by the end of the year I will have learned more, found new favourite authors, and gathered together a collection of books I wish to read and read again.

  • Another week people. We have another week of holidays.

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    School returns in just over a week down here in Tasmania. I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t looking forward to it. This year I’ll have two of three children in school and the amount of free time I predict myself having is a little dizzying.

    What isn’t on my “list of things I’m looking forward to” are the costs associated with school. Fees, levies, uniforms, school essentials, lunchboxes, it all begins to add up.

    While most of the costs are a one off thing at the beginning of the year, it doesn’t stop it becoming expensive fast if you’re not careful.

    I’ve already braved the crowds at one disorganised, insanity inducing department store in my search for plain black pants and shoes that don’t pinch.

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