Author: Veronica

  • Evelyn is growing up.

    This morning I was awoken at 5.50am by Evelyn wanting a feed. Nothing unusual there of course – she still wakes often overnight. Her twitchy seizures startle her out of sleep and then she feeds for comfort. Once she’d finished her feed, I put her back down into her cot, hoping that she would at least sleep until our alarm went off at 7am.

    No luck – she was awake and wanted to play. Again, nothing unusual. I keep a few toys in the bottom of her cot for mornings like this. If I turn on her light mobile, she can bash it and play while I catch a few minutes extra sleep.

    I rolled over and all was well until ten minutes later, when Evelyn woke me up by bashing me on the face with her tiny cold hands. Turns out she’s worked out how to wiggle up the small ledge between her (three sided) cot and my bed, to make her way to my head.

    She looked thrilled with herself, of course. Can you blame her? She can now wiggle herself to Mummy overnight whenever she wants. New skill mastered! Plus 10 experience points! Minus 4 sleep points.

    Lucky she is adorable and does things like giving me a round of applause when I get her up after her nap, and waving bye bye at every opportunity. And she’s such an old pro at giving blood now that she didn’t even cry during her blood draws on Tuesday – leaving Nathan and I in a little bit of shock. We’d been dreading it and then nothing. She just sat there and played with the tourniquet end.

    My baby is growing up.

    Evelyn smiling

    Clever girl resting on her elbows

  • Moving forward in leaps and bounds

    This morning, as a kitten napped in front of the fire, Evelyn commando crawled over to her, grabbed her by the head and then shoved her in her mouth. When I rescued the kitten, Evelyn rolled over onto her back, looked at me and clapped her hands.

    She’s very clever, this baby of mine.

    Tomorrow she has bloods to check for markers of a neuromuscular disease. We will hold her flailing body down (again), while the nurses poke her with needles (again) and we try not to take the screaming too much to heart (again). Holding my baby through a blood draw is one of my least favourite things to do, beaten only narrowly by holding my baby during a lumbar puncture and sawing off my own feet without anaesthetic.

    But as far as Evelyn goes, she’s doing really well. She tries to eat the kittens, tangles herself up in towels left on the floor, plays peekaboo and claps her hands.

    What more could I ask for?

    Last week:

    She likes to eat her toast reclined sideways in her bouncer, head resting against the edge. She giggles when I kiss her tummy and is so very pleased to see her siblings, especially Amy when she gets home from school.

    Eating toast 016

  • I fell off my chair, but it’s OKAY, because I am OKAY. My baby however, well, hmmmm.

    Two days ago I sat down on my computer chair and leaned backwards, sinking further than normal. Thinking that it felt odd, I got off the chair and looked to see if for some reason, it was bent, or crooked, or somehow or other, new. Not noticing anything, I sat back down, leaned back and suddenly found myself laying flat on my back, legs akimbo, looking at the ceiling.

    You know there is something wrong with your chair when your vertical self suddenly becomes horizontal when you least expect it.

    Obviously I am okay, except that Amy laughed at me and then wasn’t much help when I had to contort myself into strange positions to get out of my predicament. Now I’ve had to steal my husband’s chair and it feels all wrong. It doesn’t tilt quite the way I like it and I’m left bundled up in the centre of the thing, trying to work out how to type quickly and easily, while also not getting stuck like a large spider in a too small space.

    All of this is very First World Problems, which I know and understand, but I’m distracting myself from the week that was, and thus, you get to hear about my computer chair.

    Plop. There I was, flat on my back, like I’d had a rug pulled out from under me.

    Thursday, in the moments after my grandmother’s funeral, we hurried ourselves off to a Paeds appointment for Evelyn.

    The short answer to “What happened, dear Veronica, tell us because we do love your baby so” is – we’re doing more testing.

    Digression: Evelyn, when she was a vaguely preterm baby stuck in special care, bled beautifully, provided it was only a heelprick that we needed. Since then, she’s had plenty of cannulas and assorted other needle pokes and I am convinced that my baby does not actually want to part with her blood. And who can blame her really? Having needles poked into you is miserable enough without the blasted nurses then stealing the blood like vampires and taking them away. No. If I was Evelyn, I wouldn’t want to bleed either. But bleed she must and between you and me, Internet, I am dreading the next time we head into the hospital. End digression.

    We’re now testing for neuromuscular diseases, because her tongue tremor is uncommon and concerning and Things Need To Be Ruled Out. Evelyn is also going to have another EEG, which is going to be Fantastic Fun when this child does not find things being placed on her head and stuck there with tape at all amusing. Also: Hair.

    Needs must and all that, and in the middle of it all, I am stuck sitting on a computer chair that I Do Not Like and this is the end of the world.

    Because when you’ve spent too much time reading about Neuromuscular Diseases, then obsessing over your chair just makes more sense than anything else.

    Now excuse me. I have to go hug my baby.

  • I am the super cat catching woman. You may call me Kitten Whisperer

    When I told Nathan we were getting not one, but two kittens, he was exasperated with me. Grumpy as well. I promised him that he wouldn’t have to clean up any kitten accidents and Amy and I would take care of the kitty litter. He rolled his eyes and refused to talk about kittens anymore. Then our kittens came home and he came to terms with them quite quickly. He’s a giant softy, really, despite his grumbling exterior.

    Rosie and Alley have settled in beautifully and Nathan has stopped grumbling about them, which is nice, frankly.

    This morning, as Nathan left to take Amy to school, I took Evelyn back to bed. Two minutes later, Nathan was home and worried. He’d seen a little grey kitten dart across the road in front of his car and was Alley inside and safe?

    Yes, yes she was. Fast asleep on the couch, in fact.

    But there was a grey kitten hiding in the hawthorn bushes in the corner of the paddock bordering our property. I followed him outside, and sure enough, there it was. Grey and skinny, the little kitten hid under the bushes, looking terrified. Nathan left, telling me ‘good luck with that.’

    Five minutes later, I’d lost the kitten. Tangled in the bushes, I’d heard it dart through the fence, but hadn’t managed to see where it went. I gave up, feeling bad for the poor little thing, but figuring I could leave some food outside and see what happened.

    Evelyn was crying and not sleeping when I came back inside, so I spent ten minutes putting her down, then I headed back outside with cat food and the dog, Maisy. You’d think taking a dog on a walk to find a terrified kitten would be a stupid idea. You’d probably be right.

    Needless to say, I spent fifteen minutes walking around the hawthorn shaking the kitten food before Maisy got very interested in trail, presumably left by a kitten. She followed it to our chook shed and there it sat, cold and hissing at me. Moving closer, it panicked and tried to get into the roof of the shed, but found itself trapped.

    This was, of course, good news for me, as it spat and hissed and freaked out, ten feet from the ground, above a tangle of blackberries. With no where to go, I stood on top of an old nesting box, stripped off my long-sleeved t-shirt and caught the kitten.

    It fought. Oh Internet, it was terrified and it fought and hissed and scratched and bit. I had it by the scruff of the neck through my shirt though and a few moments later, it was bundled up tightly and unable to do much except shiver. It was cold and I could feel its ribs.

    So, like any normal person, I brought it inside, just as Nathan got home. He hadn’t expected me to be able to catch it, but I am the woman who caught a rabbit with her BARE HANDS and I am amazing.

    It’s sitting in a cat carrier in front of the fire now, looking discombobulated. I’m pretty sure it’s not a feral, because it didn’t freak out and hiss the moment it saw me in the hawthorn, and if it was feral, it ought to have been in a den somewhere, not walking through the wet grass and running across roads alone. Also it doesn’t seem nearly freaked enough by the dog to be feral.

    I live on a highway and animals get dumped all the time. I think that’s what’s happened here. When I get Amy off the bus tonight I’ll ask the neighbours if anyone is missing a kitten, but if not, it looks like we might have a new family member.

    Poor little thing.

    dumped grey kitten

  • Farewell Kathleen

    My great-grandmother passed away early yesterday morning after a short illness. She will be dearly missed.

    Nan and Evelyn

    Go in peace Nan.