Blogging Bedtime As It Happens.

If you are bored with my sleep issues, then feel free to skip this post.

8pm – Finish up dinner and read a book. I am mentally preparing myself for bedtime.

8.10 – I took Amy upstairs, laid her down with a bottle of water, her dog and a dummy. I left the room. Cue crying.

8.10 and 30 secs. – She just climbed out of bed. She is at the top of the stairs crying for me.

8.15 – I went back upstairs and cuddled her, read another story, laid her back down and left. Instant tears as soon as she couldn’t see me.

8.15 – Climbed out of bed again. Threw everything down the stairs. Alternately crying and playing.

8.20 – Back upstairs to cuddle and re-settle her. These tears are hard, but my nipples are still sore. I have to be very strong. *takes deep breaths*

8.21 – She is back out of bed. Can you see a pattern emerging?

8.30 – Upstairs to resettle.

8.32 – Yep, back downstairs. She cried as soon as I left and isnow alternately tantrumming and playing. Throwing stuff down the stairs as well. Good thing she can’t climb the gate, that would be nasty.

8.40 – She is crying at the stairs still. I need to go put her back to bed, but I know she won’t stay there long. *sigh* I will wait a bit longer until the crying changes.

8.42 – 2 minutes is an awfully long time. Did you know that?

8.44 – I’m gonna head back upstairs and re settle. I can’t listen to her cry and not want to fix it.

8.50 – One pooey nappy later, she is back downstairs. I think we will watch some TV.

9.05 – Back upstairs with a clean nappy. We had big snuggles on the couch and read another book. In bed we had big snuggles and Amy had a huge drink of water. I put her in bed and left the room. She cried for a minute but is quiet now. I wonder if she is still in bed?

9.18 – Suspicious silence. I didn’t hear the thump that normally accompanies a climb out of bed. I am too scared to go check on her. Sometimes she will play up there in my room for ages before I hear anything. I will swear black and blue she is asleep and then she proves me wrong. I don’t dare hope yet.

9.20 – Still silent. I am trying to convince myself that checking on her is a bad thing. I really want to see those eyes closed for myself though.

9.25 – Silence. Is this sleep? I am going to check, wish me luck!

9.28 – Fast asleep!!! Probably has been for 15mins at least. I tempted fate and took a photo. Sorry about the terrible angle etc, but I wasn’t tempting fate by taking more than one.

No, I didn’t risk turning on the light. That is my flash. Also, see the bottle? That is the first time she has taken a bottle in her life. It’s full of water because it is so hot upstairs, I didn’t want her asleep up there with no boobs and no drink. That brown thing that she is laying on? That is her favourite toy ‘Doggy’. She sleeps terribly if he isn’t about, though in a pinch ‘Ducky’ will do.

She has also rolled about and dragged the sheet off the bed, but hey! I’m not gonna fix it now. The morning is soon enough.

Also? My boobs are very full and they hurt. Ouch.