My ovaries are broken.
Rooted.
Buggered.
Which is a shame, because they looked so pretty on the ultrasound, adorned in cysts.
It explains why my only 2 pregnancies have been acheived coming straight off the pill (the pill calms down the hormones/symptoms) and why it took so long to actually get pregnant.
It also explains why I’ve just had a 60 + day cycle.
However, my hormone levels don’t look too bad, so in the event I ever get pregnant again, my chance of miscarriage shouldn’t be too much higher. The pregnancy thing, well, sensibility tells me that my 2 are enough and a perfect number and my biological clock is beating me with a handbag, telling me that I neeeeeeeed another baby.
I think for now, sensibility is going to win. Sigh.
In the meantime, I am going back on the pill (hey, that’s going to be FUN) – but a pill without progesterone, so it won’t affect my joints. What it does to my mood remains to be seen.
In other news, I had an echocardiogram the other day, to check my mitral valve – something that gets floppier with Ehlers Danlos and time.
So far, my heart isn’t broken! Which is a very good thing. Yes, there may be a tiny prolapse there, maybe, but it’s nothing major and I can go away for another few years before having it checked again.
Which is all good as far as I’m concerned.
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And to take a moment to be a total mummyblogger:
Considering I’ve had such a crappy week (month) I would love if you could vote for me in the Babble list. I think I’m on page 3? Or page 2. Either one.
PCOS is a shit of a thing. I’m sorry. Especially for the beating you’re getting from your biological clock. It sucks.
Yet another diagnosis. Awesome. But I guess at least it’s a reason. Reasons can help, can’t they?
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that just sucks 🙁
Will go vote for you now.
:: goes votes and comes back ::
The pregnancy thing is so hard, I had to get spayed when Heidi was born, they tied my tubes after removing Heidi by c-section. It is so difficult. Medically it would be a very bad idea for me to be pregnant again and I want to be
a) healthy
b) alive
to enjoy the children I’ve got. But that doesn’t make me feel emotionally better about missing out on the experience of being pregnant and holding that tiny baby in my arms.
Oh sweety. (((hugs)))
Off to vote for you now. 🙂 xx
PCOS sucks balls.
Excuse my language.
However, knowing that you have it is half the battle. At least you know, right?
I’m sorry. This is coming out all wrong.
What I want to say, I guess- from one person with PCOS to another…I am sending good thoughts and lots of good menstrual cycle juju your way.
:/ Gah. I’m terrible at this.
xx
I share your pain. PCOS is a motherfucker. Oh, and mine was thoughtful enough to render me infertile… Jerk.
Had the same thing hon when I was younger. For some reason though (maybe the pill) mine cleared. Before I had kids, I had really long cycles too (shortest was 35 days, but most were 50 days +) and I ended up trying Chlomid before getting pregnant with the 8yo. It didn’t work apparently (tests showed I didn’t ovulate), but something happened because I started to get strong ovulation pain after that (and have continued to do so ever since when I ovulate), and managed to get pregnant with the 8yo that month – just at week later than what I was supposed to! Since then, my cycles were great in between pregnancies, but vary a lot now.
Hang in there. xxx
Voted.
I met a fabulous lady in her early 60s the other day with EDS. we had a chat about her condition, she told me a few very dirty jokes and we generally had a good ol’ chat. She was pissed at the way her body would not work properly, but still wore a smile and carried herself with dignity. I wish I”d been able to spend more time talking with her. She too, knows more than the drs about EDS and teaches them!
Sorry about the PCOS but at least you know now and can have some sort of treatment for it which may make life a tad easier. And, hey, a (mostly) unbroken heart – YAY!!
The yearning for another baby is sad, although to my mind, the assorted health challenges you have as a family are more than enough to cope with for the moment. A third child in the near future would stretch your resources extremely thin, or possibly snap them altogether. Who knows what positive changes a few years may bring? You are still very, very young.
xox
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Damn, I’m really sorry. That is pretty sucky.
I’m glad to hear your heart’s not broken. Long may that last.
xxx
(((hugs)))
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