You’d think that I would be well prepared for the day three hormone drop, considering that I’ve done this twice before. You’d be wrong of course and despite Evelyn having a great night, I am finding myself miserable.
I am homesick, I miss Amy and Isaac desperately and I just want the doctors to decide that I am capable enough of feeding my own child, and let her go. Once the jaundice clears up of course – my breasts may be pretty awesome, but they can’t make the jaundice disappear magically.
Speaking of feeding and milk, which I’m not sure we were, but we are now – I expressed 50ml of milk this morning. Can I get a cheer here please? This was on top of her having a good feed.
I’m sitting here next to her in Special Care, watching her suck on a dummy and relax inside a bili-blanket. She looks decidedly happier than I am and who can blame her?
She is maintaining her body temperatures and I’ve just heard that her billirubin levels have dropped enough for her to come off the lights (three cheers for the clever baby!).
Now we just wait for the doctors and walk the fine line between normalising her breastfeeding without tube feeds and pushing her too hard. I hope we can walk it effectively and that the doctors listen. I’ve managed to score another night in Maternity, so wish us luck with getting Evelyn out of NICU and back with me.
fifty mls? way to go. Hooray. well done!
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Thinking of you both … that day 3’s a killer, was for me all three times. So glad to hear Miss Evelyn is doing so well and hope you will be home together very soon.
That’s great, boo to the baby blues though- nasty buggers that they are. I feel for you having them in hospital but it sounds like there are no real worrie with E. which is good! ride out the hormones, they will go soon, your milk is in for real now!
Oh hooray! 50ml is AWESOME! 🙂 I’m glad that Miss E is rocking the tropical sunshine and feeling better, and losing her Euro tan. And day three sucks, but it’s day 4 in 12 hours time. xoxo
I am glad she is doing well (jaundice not counted – both mine had it and heaps of other bubs that I know) glad she is feeding well and 50mls on top of a feed is truly AWESOME I have never had a good milk suply but your body knows what to do.
And the day 3 hormones are just horrible….I tried to focus on it being hormonal and short term. I hope she gets out of NICU soon and can be with you because I know that will help you 🙂
You’ll be home in no time if you and Miss E keep progressing so well. I’m sure Amy and Isaac are saving you heaps of cuddles.
Yay!! Enjoy the pampering for now, hope it is not too much longer!
Sounds like you are both doing amazingly well! Sending loads of love, the hormones can be so sucky 🙁 xx
Boo to the hormones, but YAY YAY YAY for the smart and strong Evelyn! And yay for scoring another night! Wishing you lots of luck with the doctors. Ihope everything continues to get better and you will both be home very soon!
You will be home soon. I just know it
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yay to baby and to boobs! Hope you are both home very soon
I’ll keep my fingers crossed for Evelyn’s continued improvement and hopefully she will be in the ward with you very soon. Then both of you going home.
I remember expressing after feeding. I swear I had more milk than a jersey cow. I fed half the preemie ward for three days. It was very uncomfortable.
Oh honey bun, I have been the same both times post-partum: hormonal CRASHes on about day 4 or 5 which last for a week. Tears and tears, and feeling like my heart is breaking… over nothing. I hope it goes away for you soon. Just keep saying “it’s the hormones” to yourself to remind yourself you are not going crazy, you are not depressed, you are just having a natural reaction to hormones :S
Day 3 sucks at the best of times let alone when your baby is in NICU. I hope it passed but if didn’t then that is normal too. Having a prem baby can wreak havock on your hormones because of the rollercoaster rise you are experiencing.
Did you hear me cheering from there? Pumping 50mls is awesome! I did it for 2months straight before Airlie could become fully breastfed and it is amazing how you feel when you can produce milk in this quantity.
I hope you are getting closer to home and as hard as it is try to be patient and not rush it because you’ll only end up back in there. Take care xx
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