Progressively expanding

by Veronica on July 26, 2012

in Grief, Pregnant. Finally.

Here I am at almost 35 weeks, by the original reckoning. Of course, no one knows anymore exactly how far along I am, so who knows? It’s possible I’m 38 weeks, and probable that the babe is measuring close to 39 weeks at this stage.

Me however, I’m in the hell that is prelabour. Crampiness, pressure, bloody show and not a baby to show for it. It’s pretty crap. The hell that is prelabour means that my creative thoughts are limited to:

“Prelabour sucks.”

“God I am sick of being pregnant.”

“Dear baby, can you just come out now?”

“This sucks.”

Which, as you can imagine, is not terribly conducive to writing a blog. I’m also trying to get my headspace sorted out, because the last time I was this pregnant, my grandmother was dying. It’s a bit headfucky and I miss her terribly right now.

In conclusion, I’m very ready to meet my daughter, and grief is not a linear event.

How are you?

 

 

Amy @ Mrs Smyth July 26, 2012 at 9:52 am

Also still pregnant, and will be for some time. Also a bit sick of it. Thinking of you and your baby. 🙂 xo

Jess July 26, 2012 at 10:07 am

Beautiful belly. You look positively ready to pop! Hopefully your dates are sooner rather than later and you get to meet your new little girl soon :o)

Fiona July 26, 2012 at 10:31 am

Hai!

I’m good.

*waves*

tiff July 26, 2012 at 11:33 am

hoping she makes her grand entrance soon and that you can find some good memories floating in there, along with the grief.

cat@jugglingact July 26, 2012 at 9:41 pm

Best of luck! FIne on this side. Thinking about you

river July 26, 2012 at 10:46 pm

I never had any pre-labours, so I don’t have a clue about how you are feeling right now.
I do remember thinking, I’ve had enough of this, just get born already! But mostly my pregnancies were easy and a joy to experience.
I think you’ve still got a couple of weeks to go, but like you, I’m eager to “meet” your new baby girl.

carley July 27, 2012 at 7:37 am

1) “headfucky” is my new favorite word.

2) my baby just gave me a dislocated rib connected to my round ligament. I’m done being happy. 6 more weeks of this crap. weeeee.

3) I love you, your baby and your posts. thank you.

Sharon A. July 27, 2012 at 9:32 am

I hope this stage passes quickly Veronica. Those last weeks can be hell!

Veronica July 28, 2012 at 10:49 am

Right there with you in the prelabor hell … and getting ready for my daughter’s second birthday party tomorrow. Blech! You can probably guess how huge my ankles will be by tomorrow night.

Good luck!

Tanya July 28, 2012 at 11:11 am

Beautiful belly, but I’m hoping for there to be less belly and more of a real life baby by tonight, eeee! Then the pre-labour thoughts dissappear and the holy-fuck-I-have-a-brand-new-baby thoughts start! 😀

Good Luck xxxx

traceyb65 July 28, 2012 at 11:23 pm

my daughter kept me awake for five nights BEFORE she was born! good training, she was an ATROCIOUS sleeper … i write this knowing Evelyn is arrived and both are well. much love and happiness to you both and to all your family. xt

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