The hospital insanity has started and continues to worsen. Knowing that something is best for your child and not wanting to kick things when it happens – those are two different things.
Evelyn and I are in hospital for another night, even though her jaundice levels are below the line for phototherapy. The reasons for this are completely sensible – they don’t want to send her home today, only to have her rebound and require time in special care next week without me. Logically, this makes lots of sense and it’s the decision I was expecting to be made when her bilirubin levels came back this morning.
Knowing that it’s logical doesn’t stop me wanting to cry however. Hospital is such an unreal environment and my mental state is suffering a bit. Add in hormones and I’m on shaky ground a bit.
Of course, this will all improve when we get to go home tomorrow, bringing Evelyn back in on Monday for a repeat blood test, while praying that everything is improving, not worsening.
Her poo has gone a lovely black/green colour, which I can only hope is all of the toxins leaving her system as fast as they can.
On the upside, she is feeding amazingly well and not needing bottle top ups.
Basically, it’s all good news, I’m just insane and hormonal. Also eminently thankful that I have the tablet, my kindle has books on it and my phone has music.
Oh! And even better news? Today’s weigh in shows that Evelyn gained weight. Only a tiny amount, but can we all give a cheer for my super milk producing breasts?
Now I’m going to hunt down the tissues and have a cry.
hugs. not long and this will be a distant memory 🙂
hugs. not long and this will be a distant memory 🙂
Just breathe and as Kelli says,soon it will all be just a memory
Hugs
you’re doing a fantastic job and your milk is awesome. I can’t imagine how tough it must be. Hang in there!
aren’t those weight gains, small as they are, the best thing in the world? It’s like passing the worst high school exam.
One foot in front of the other.
All the best
Hope the cry helped clear your head a little. She is such a precious little person and lucky to have you as her mother. Loads of love and hoping you’re both set free very soon. xox
She’s LOVELY!!!! And congrats on weight gain and good feedback. Go ahead and have a good cry – better out than in, I always say. Also, MUCH better to be safe than traipsing back in to the ward after making home.
Hugs
BB
She is such a cutie 🙂 Hang in there, it’s almost over! <>
Adorable! Having to stay in the hospital is the worst feeling but soon enough you’ll both be on your way home.
Until then, you could try my favourite coping strategy: Just pretend you are in a luxury hotel (a la little princess)
Hoping you are sent home soon soon soon!
The black/green poo is completely normal and usually happens earlier, very soon after birth. I’d say Evelyn’s jaundice and top-up feeds have delayed this until now. It is the toxins being cleared, so you can be happy that her liver is functioning normally. To me Evelyn looks a lot like Amy did.
Hope the cry helped relieve the stress a bit, you’ll both be home soon enough.
The meconium? She cleared that already, in the first few days 🙂 apparently this change from sunny yellow that she had for a few days to dark dark green is a jaundice thing.
Waah! She’s so beautiful. And you’re probably all hormonal and tired and want to get home. I hope Evelyn is ready soon!!
I know just what you mean but just keep the though of getting her 100% healthy before taking her home so you don’t end up there in the near future.
Having a cry is a good thing too, none of this is easy.
Just try to remember if they move the goal posts or you feel like you aren’t getting anywhere that it’s all normal stuff she is dealing with and hopefully as soon as she is ready you’ll get to take her home. Thinking of you and your family xx
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