Sleepless Nights

Author: Veronica

  • Comment Fatigue

    I have comment fatigue.

    You know what I mean. It’s where you are reading great blog posts, but trying to find something to comment that sounds the same inside your head AND in type is just too hard.

    I’m always a little worried that what I type won’t come out the same way as I thought it. Maybe because things don’t have the same sound when you are reading them, as when you are writing them?

    Who knows.

    So I don’t comment.

    I read and I think and I want to add something, but the simple act of adding my opinions to the (sometimes many) opinions that are already there is just too big a job.

    And sometimes I worry that I will say something jokingly and it will be taken the wrong way and then someone will get all offended and I’ll have to explain myself, all the while getting more stressed about leaving comments and then things will just degenerate into a cycle of run of sentences and I will have to shut up and stop commenting for good.

    Or maybe I’m just tired.

    With a tendency to overthink things.

    Sigh.

    So if you haven’t had a comment from me for a while, it isn’t necessarily that I’m not reading, it’s simply that I cannot find the energy to add anything to the discussion. Sometimes I want to comment and just let people know that ‘Hi, I’m here reading you. I support what you’re saying’ but how do you say something like that without sounding weird.

    Surely I’m not the only one who gets comment fatigue.

    ***

    I’m having a bit of a CFS crash and burn at the moment. The antibiotics I am on, coupled with being home after hospital and my crappy immune system has knocked me for a six. Concentrating is hard, I am physically and mentally spent and everything is achey like I have the flu.

    I know a few more days and I will bounce back and be fine, but until then, you can find me underneath my rock pretending that my panadol are lollies and that the world doesn’t exist.

    Failing that, you can probably find me outside in the sun with a book, watching Amy play. Luckily she has been easy going lately.

    ***

    But seriously, this post was meant to be about comment fatigue. Do you find it hard to comment sometimes? Is there any blog in particular that you feel out of your depth on?

  • Home

    And still very much pregnant.

    After a big scan this morning, the doctors have determined that everything is fine. My cervix is still nice and long and closed, with no funneling. The baby is active and growing well and my placenta is healthy and away from my cervix.

    They have no idea what caused me to lose the mucus plug, but they suspect that it was the infection that I had.

    I’m not on bedrest, just ‘light’ rest. IE: I get to have Nathan do all the lifting of the washing baskets and the vacuuming.

    The baby flipped head down while I was in the hospital, so I can officially stop complaining about feet in my bladder. My entire belly has dropped too, so I can almost breathe properly again.

    I have been told to be extra vigilant and to ring the hospital if there is anything going on that doesn’t feel right.

    You have no idea how pleased I am to be home. I’m tired (hopsital isn’t exactly the most restful place, heh) and strung out and CANNOT wait for bedtime tonight.

    As I write this, Amy is having a tantrum because THINGS AREN’T WORKING RIGHT (think she’s been stressed too?) and Nathan is cooking tea. Gotta love that man.

    Thanks so much to Mum who updated my blog and also to everyone who commented and thought of me. You have no idea how much it meant to me to come home and see all my emails. I’m still trying to work my way through them!

    You guys are awesome.

  • Updated again..

    Hello out there it is Vonnie’s Mum again. Thankyou for your prayers, best wishes, cyber hugs and the all round good will that has been sent our way.

    It is Sunday afternoon and so far all is well. Veronica had some light contractions at 3 am this morning but they stopped after about an hour..*phew*

    She has had two steroid injections, twelve hours apart which are to speed up the developement of her son’s lungs.  This is a  “just in case precaution”.

    The doctorsare keeping her in hospital for at least the next 24 hours and they have now classed her pregnancy as high risk.

    Tomorrow they will do a proper ultrasound to have a really good look at the baby.

    So that is all for now. You know as much as I do..

    Cheers Kim

  • Veronica is in hospital..

    Hello it is Veronica’s Mother here. Veronica has been admitted to hospital for observation. Vonnie has an infection and has started a course of antibiotics. They have done a fetal fibronectin test and we will get the results tomorrow. We want a negative result because that will mean that Veronica isn’t in early labour. A positive result means that there is a 50/50 chance that Veronica will start labour within the next 7 days..

    But at this stage (8.00pm on saturday night) all seems to be well. Veronica’s cervix is not dilated at all *phew* The baby is fine with a good heartbeat. He is nice and active and kicking Vonnie in the bladder..

    So now you all know as much as I do..

    cheers Kim

    ******************

    updated:

    shit shit shit..

    Vonnie has just rung me, the test results were positive. So they will now give Veronica steroids to help mature the babies lungs just in case…

  • Surreal (TMI)

    I started to lose my mucous plug yesterday morning.

    It started off looking like snot, with the occasional bit of blood streaking. This morning, it is reddy brown and I can’t deny that is it happening anymore.

    It all feels a little surreal.

    Only, I’m worried it won’t be. It took us so long to conceive this little one, even being pregnant still feels like a  dream sometimes.

    Baby is moving well and I am not having contractions. I am crampy and a bit uncomfortable though. And worried. Very worried.

    Think of me today as I head to the hospital again.

    25 weeks 2 days.

    Way too early for this crap.