Evelyn had another blood test this morning – what we were hoping would be her last one. However, despite everything, her bilirubin levels have relapsed again and we need to have her bloods drawn again tomorrow morning.
“Come prepared to stay” was the verdict. I expect if the family unit had of been free tonight, I’d be typing this from the hospital. I don’t even know what to say about this. The last 10 days have been such a rollercoaster and I thought that we’d managed to step off the ride for a bit. I was wrong.
I’m a bit shattered. And stressed. And probably bitter too.
Also, note to anyone else out there with a newborn baby suffering jaundice, don’t google “jaundice in newborn not going away”. Trust me, you don’t want to read it.
This news came on top of a visit to my great-grandmother, who isn’t terribly well at the moment. She nearly passed out opening the door to us and thought that Isaac was Amy for the entire visit, even when we explained that Amy was at school and this was our son, Isaac.
My great grandmother hasn’t really recovered from the death of her husband and then the death of her daughter (my much grieved grandmother). It’s hard to see her like this and I’m glad she got to meet and hold Evelyn today. Evelyn is named for her, Nan being Kathleen.
It’s been a long day Internet and I don’t even know what to say. Evelyn’s jaundice isn’t getting any better and everything just feels crappy. Having to head back to hospital after two and a half days at home feels like I’m being sent to the naughty corner.
In the meantime, there was this. Excuse the pajamas and unbrushed hair.
Oh sweetie. I’ve been thinking about you all day.
Massive hugs
Gorgeous pic.
More hugs
I saw the weather report and wondered if you even managed to get down the road, let alone back to the hospital. You make cute kids….
I don’t know what to say.
The midwife in me says feed feed feed
but of course you already know that, so that is useless hoity toity advice (and i have had a gut full of that today so I am not in any place to give it)
I hope the levels have dropped tomorrow and you don’t get stuck in the hospital again.
Sending love as always xx
Sending love as always.
Just keep going, one day at a time. You’ve got this, you can do it:) Sorry this part sucks though.
Oh hugs love,
What a bunch of cuties, and gosh Amy is getting big!!
I’m so sorry its all so overwhelming right now 🙁
Cait xxx
You have beautiful children. BEAUTIFUL.
Good luck in the hospital, I really hope Evelyn improves really quickly because I know how crap it is to be in and out and in and out of hospital and just in limbo for ages. Take care.
One foot in front of the other, it’s all we can do.
Thinking of you.
What a special, special photo of your gorgeous kids. I’m so sorry Evelyn isn’t well – I know how stressful it is when your newborn is sick (Inky had MAS when she was born and might not have made it if not for the Paed we had at her delivery). Thinking of you (virtually). It is a bit strange getting to know someone on their blog when you don’t really know them and don’t know what to say, but do take care of yourself. K
Everything will be fine. Everything will be fine. Repeat. 🙂 Thinking of you.
I find the stark juxtaposition of newborns and their unwell older relatives really emotional. When we take Tricky to see my paternal grandmother (in a high care facility) I always leave feeling so drained. But we still go because I know it’s important.
Fingers crossed the levels drop by tomorrow. That photo? AMAZING. The little kiss on the head is making me clucky. xxx
Beautiful photo, hope you are not going back xo take care.
I’m sorry to hear you have to go back to hospital. I also know how hard it is watching our grandparents when they get this way. So sad.
Your photo is lovely.
One day at a time. Evelyn will get there and in a few weeks I am sure you will all be settled in at home. Hugs.
Ugg, I’m so sorry…<>
Great picture of the kiddos 🙂
I hope that you wake to a beautiful sunny day and it miraculously works its magic on Evelyn so that you don’t end up with another hospital stay.
Thinking of you and your beautiful, beautiful family.
Take care and be kind to yourself. xo
That’s a beautiful photo of your babies.
Sorry you have to get back into the hospital.
Perhaps things will change before then, if not I hope you don’t have to stay there very long.
Crossing my fingers, toes and everything else that the next blood test will bring positive news for you….Gorgeous pic too. Xxx
Oh what a day you’ve had! I hope tomorrow is much, much better.
I can’t even imagine the frustration you must be feeling, the overwhelming worry for your baby girl and now the extra worry of a great grandmother who is confused about who her grand children are.
When you go back to the hospital, go mentally prepared for the worst case but carry with you the love that your sometimes befuddled great grandmother has for you and your family and take that picture of your three beautiful blessings with you when you go.
Thinking about you all and hoping for good news soon. BG Xx
What a beautiful picture of three beautiful kids!
I hope the test goes (went?) well and you can take Evelyn home again.
Sending lots of strength!
Kid-ling kisses. Gorgeous.
Hope things improve soon. xx
Thinking of you and your family. Hope you get some positive news and get to take little Evelyn back home soon. x
Oh my, what a beautiful bunch of babies you have there! So sorry to hear about this rollercoaster, just take heart that she is in the right place for now and hopefully a speedy recovery is on the cards. Thinking of you xx
Oh Hun, i’m one of those mums who googled it with my 4th. Thankfully he had what they believed to be ‘breast milk jaundice’ and with close monitoring (i.e 2-3 hospital trips for bloods a week for the first 4 weeks and then monthly paeds visits until 6 months) he was fine. Every set of bloods came with the warning “Come prepared to stay”. He is now a happy healthy 2 year old and i’m sure Evelyn will be just fine… NO MORE GOOGLE for you though, you don’t need to add those stresses to yourself.
Thinking of you xx
Oh, I’m so sorry! I am glad though that in this whole post was no mention of we’re staying home b/c we really can’t afford it, or my husband will lose his job at this rate, or anything like that? I am assuming all is well on those fronts???? Prayers!!
You have a beautiful family Veronica, you’ve come a long way after all you’ve been through, I pray that your Great grandmother has better days and for that matter you too. Thinking of you, hang in there. xxJess
I know little E is the focus of your posts right now (with good reason) but can I just say, Isaac is looking completely scrumptious these days. That picture of him is just BEAUTIFUL.
Just wanted to say what a beautiful photo!
I know this is late, and so much has happened since then. But I wanted to go back to the start. And I couldn’t leave this post without a comment.
Forget PJs and unbrushed hair. I think this might be the most beautiful picture I’ve ever seen on your blog. Your children are honestly so beautiful. So like you.
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