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  • Slices

    Me: ‘Amy! Can yooooooou….. get Isaac’s dummy please?’

    Amy: ‘Can yoooooooou…. get Amy ice-cream?’

    I may possibly have been laughing too hard to respond. She didn’t get ice-cream. I didn’t get Isaac’s dummy.

    Which, incidentally, he is taking very occasionally.

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    Telling Isaac good morning first thing of a morning, gets me the biggest smiles. It’s like he hasn’t seen me all night.

    One wonders who he thinks is feeding and resettling him all night.

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    Amy: ‘MUMMY! LOOK! A MOUSE!’

    [Yes, she does talk in ALL CAPS and with exclamation marks]

    Me: ‘Where?!’

    Amy: ‘Dere! Dere! LOOK!’

    Me: ‘Amy? Sweetie? That’s fluff.’

    Amy: ‘Yes! A fluffy mouse!’

    And here? I laughed so hard I cried.

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    Nathan hurt his back today. Twisted the wrong way and now can’t move at all. Which would be fine, was he not stuck flat on his back in the middle of the loungeroom floor. Anyway, we were talking about his pain and Amy…

    Amy: ‘Daddy! Oh no! My back hurts Daddy!’

    Nat: ‘Does it?’

    Amy: ‘And my legs. Amy’s legs hurt. Oh no!’

    Nat: ‘Really?’

    [Amy flopped to ground and proceeded to flop around like a fish]

    Amy: ‘Yes Daddy. Amy’s backs really hurts.’

    We cracked up.

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  • The Best Bits

    Isaac Sleeping

    Taken in a dark room with no flash and a 30sec exposure. Slightly desaturated in Photoshop.

    Ah sleep. If only we were getting more of it! Am so thankful he didn’t wiggle while I was taking this.

  • Death! Death and destruction!

    I keep finding dead mice in random spots.

    The first one showed up in the bathroom. I was alerted to it’s presence by a yelling Nathan, who had me pick it up and throw it in the fire. [In his defence, he was just about to step into the shower and everyone knows you can’t deal with mice when you are naked]

    The second one was in the middle of the study. Just laying there. I almost trod on it, which would have been unpleasant, because we all know what poison does to their insides. I can just imagine the squidge sound it would have made.

    SQUIDGE.

    I mean, I knew it was going to happen when we poisoned them. Theoretically I knew.

    I don’t think I was prepared for the dead mice to start appearing all over the house though.

    It feels like it is only a matter of time before I go to put on a pair of socks, only to find dead mice inside them. Or pull out a pot from the cupboard to find a tiny little funeral taking place.

    I don’t know what’s worse. To have them scurrying about, breeding and carrying disease, or dying in nooks and crannys where I may or may not find them.

    Fun times.

  • Dirty Nappies and Cheese

    When Amy was a baby she screamed.

    and screamed

    and screamed

    andscreamedandscreamedandscreamed.

    She wanted to be UP! And DOING! and being HELD! while SCREAMING!

    It was hard. It was so very very hard to get through her first 6 months. Because yes, she screamed to be UP and DOING until she was able to crawl and make mischief on her own.

    It was colic, it was a tummy ache, it was general grumpiness, it was a high maintenance baby, needing to be held.

    Until she started solids though, I didn’t notice that she was allergic to milk protein. Actually, I didn’t notice for a while after she started solids. For a new mother who had been told ‘introduce foods one at a time and wait for any reactions’ I was remarkably blind to the fact that SHE WAS ALLERGIC TO MILK. Her allergy wasn’t severe, just diarrhoea and eczema. She was breastfed though, so I didn’t expect her poo to be any different and eczema? Well that runs in the family. Hereditary. Nothing to worry about.

    However, one day it clicked. ‘Wait! Her diarrhoea went away when I forgot to buy yogurt! Geez, has she had any dairy this week? Hmmm, didn’t a friend have a boy with a milk allergy? Well shit, maybe I am just the worst mother in the world.’

    Once we cut out dairy, she was pretty okay. Her skin cleared up mostly and her diarrhoea went away. Because she was breastfed, it wasn’t hard to keep dairy out of her diet. She didn’t react badly when I had dairy, so I never bothered going dairy free myself. After her second birthday, we started letting her have a little bit of

    milk with cereal, etc etc. We lightened up on the whole dairy-free thing and generally stopped thinking about it.

    Enter Isaac.

    Isaac doesn’t scream. He also doesn’t sleep, but he doesn’t scream.

    However.

    At nine weeks old, he is still pooey at every nappy change and I am needing to change his bum once an hour. Dude? That’s not completely normal.

    Then, his bum breaks out in a rash. Sure we’ve got/had the whole thrush thing happening, but I’ve got that mostly under control, so blisters? bleeding? Not in my current repertoire.

    Also, his gas smells BAD. His poo smells like normal breastfed poo, but this boy could out fart my brother. True.

    So, I drew some conclusions (and some cats and dogs and a plane, because Amy had the paper) and decided that maybe, just maybe, he might be allergic to milk protein too.

    Cue me going dairy free.

    And whinging about it every step of the way.

    I like dairy. I like dairy A LOT. A  freaking lot, okay?

    I supermarketed today and didn’t buy any yogurt. No cream. No bocconcini.

    I figure Amy has been looking a little blotchy lately and Nathan tells me her nappies have been bad, a little dairy free won’t hurt her either.

    Still.

    I’m not looking forward to this.

    [Isaac’s bum has cleared up now, thanks to a nearly nappy free day yesterday and a good dose of zinc cream. Thank goodness!]

    Sunset

    Our sunset this evening.

    Isaac - 9w3d

    9 weeks and 3 days.

  • Free to good home

    Free to good home: My sanity. Would prefer to give it away before it dribbles away entirely.

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    At 3am this morning you would have found me wandering around the house, trying to find every single dummy that may have been hidden in the hope that Isaac would just suck on one of them for just a minute fortheloveofgod.

    Instead, I ended up cold, with a crying baby who flat down refused to suck on ANYTHING that wasn’t me. My nose? Good. My little finger? Good. My nipple? FANFREAKINGTASTIC! A dummy? What the fuck MUM?

    I ended up with a screaming gagging baby frantically hunting for my nipples, three rejected dummies and milk to my waist. Not a good night. It was however, a normal night.

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    I had planned to go along to my mothers group tomorrow. All this not sleeping is seriously killing my sanity and I think I need to just talk to women who are dealing with the same things right now. Also, the coffee and the chocolate biscuits don’t hurt either. Plus? I like the women at my mothers group. I have missed it desperately since I stopped going over 12 months ago. I need to go along and let Amy play with the kids again.

    Best laid plans of mice and men though, today the car started playing up. Until we get it booked in to be fixed (it needs routine work we were putting off because we were broke), we aren’t going anywhere.

    Which would be FINE, were we not living on rice and beans and was I not slowly losing my sanity. Whatever.

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    -Consistently runny poo
    -Gas that smells BAD
    -Red rashy bum

    Wait wait, I know this one. I’ve done thing one before!

    I suspect Isaac has the same milk protein allergy that Amy did. The difference this time? Hardly any screaming, which WAIT! That would be because I eat very little dairy at the moment anyway. Where’s that elimination diet sheet? SIGN ME UP!

    Sigh.

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    Nathan slipped his arm around my waist today and pulled me closer and OH FUCK! One of my ribs moved under his hand and went all out of place. Can ribs dislocate? God knows my side still hurts. I’m falling apart.

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    Another post about sleep. Sigh. Even I’m sick of me.