Sleep. Again.

by Veronica on May 2, 2009

in Life

Dear Isaac,

Gosh we’re getting to spend some quality time together lately. There is no doubt about the fact that I find you simply delicious and could kiss you all day.

However.

If you’re smiling and not sleeping at 4am, then I’m probably not in the right mood to appreciate your deliciousness. If you are still smiling and not sleeping 2.5 hours later at 6.30am, then I’m really in no mood for baby softness.

You know what happens shortly after 6.30? Your sister wakes up.

And sure, I could sleep while she plays in our child-proof house (child-proof in the sense that nothing can kill her. Not in the sense that she can kill nothing), but last time I did that things went terribly horribly badly wrong. So wrong in fact that I haven’t blogged about it yet because it was that bad.

(And because I’m hoping that Canon might just cover my camera, despite what Amy did to it being non-warranty covered damage. It may have involved my precious love of my life camera, a bored 2yo, a mother who fell asleep breastfeeding, a container and some water. It. Was. Bad.)

So baby boy, it’s now 11.26pm and on a regular night, you would have been asleep 3 hours ago. Funny how kids like to save up all their sleeplessness in order to wear down their parents. If you weren’t such a sunny child, I would suspect that you and Amy are plotting together.

Instead of being asleep properly though, you are cat napping. I know I have said this before, but cat naps are for cats. Not for babies. Stop it.

Waking up 20 minutes after you fall asleep screaming like a banshee is not good for me sweetheart. It makes Mummy tired. When Mummy gets too tired Mummy can’t sleep because Mummy vomits all night. Which in turn makes everything worse.

Worse than that though? If I get too tired, I cannot play fun games like aeroplanes, or bouncing, or tickle the baby, because I am just too tired. Then you get bored and you cry and I cry and it’s just a vicious cycle.

So really, wouldn’t it be easier to just fall asleep already for me? Like, right now?

Please?

I love you, even when you don’t sleep.

-Mummy.

***

We’re both snuggled up in bed together at the moment. I’m playing on my laptop and Isaac is next to me in his three sided cot looking at the wall, playing with his hands and making noises. Sleep? Hahahaha.

Maybe later.

I think it’s The Revolution all over again. Sleep is for the weak.

Taz May 3, 2009 at 12:29 am

here is hoping he falls asleep soon..

wanna swap babies just for one night.. 🙂

Bendy Girl May 3, 2009 at 12:29 am

Goodness! Now Isaac, listen to your Aunty Bendy. As I live too far away to come give your mother a break and posting you over to me might be slightly traumatic for you thus ensuring you never sleep again, really going off to the land of nod right now is your best option. Unless of course you can persuade your mummy and grandmummy to relocate to the UK? No, thought not…time to sleep then lil man Zzzzzzzz

Marylin May 3, 2009 at 12:43 am

I think he’s got Max involved too – he’s started waking and screaming anywhere between 10pm-1am for no reason other than wanting out of his cot.

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Kat May 3, 2009 at 2:40 am

SO sorry about your camera. Ugh.

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Catherine May 3, 2009 at 6:18 am

I sympathise – it’s so frustrating because there isn’t much you can do.

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Mrs. C May 3, 2009 at 7:58 am

Move to Missouri! THEN you can just get Amy onto the “daytime” schedule that Isaac is already on.

I solved it for ya. You’re welcome!

Jayne May 3, 2009 at 8:42 am

Turn the radio on low next to his bed.
Some Black Sabbath should send him off to sleep 😉

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Tanya May 3, 2009 at 12:44 pm

Agreeing with Jayne, try a few different things, such as radio or telly if possible. Something has to work? Thats the advice we were given at the antenatal classes, followed by a lecture on shaken baby syndrome, and to PUT THE BABY DOWN, go out of the room and phone someone. Apparently sleep deprivation is the best form of torture. So I feel for you…but in a few weeks I will be joining you, hopefully my little one doesnt join the revolution.

So sorry about your camera, when children break something its hard because you cant be too mad at them, yet you want to blame someone. Frustrating.

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Sarah May 3, 2009 at 2:39 pm

Hmmm, I am in the limbo land where my baby does what she likes, when she likes and I am finding it hard to stop being such a control freak and get her onto a schedule. Its just so hard not knowing whether to feed her again or put her down, or rock her, or play with her. Go to sleep Isaac!

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river May 3, 2009 at 2:56 pm

Playing with his hands and making noises is much better than screaming the house down for no reason, yes? if you just leave him to it, and quietly lean back, scootch down a little further, close your eyes for a while, say about 3 hours, he probably wouldn’t even notice.

Sharon May 3, 2009 at 3:07 pm

Oh bugger!

I think that probably sums up this post!

Kathy May 3, 2009 at 5:55 pm

Does it help at all to know that with the (merciful! MERCIFUL!) exception of no night-waking toddler, this could be my story right now?

My 10-week-old is also all about the 4am thing right now, and if I get too exhausted, I start with heavy-duty exhaustion symptoms, which include but are not limited to sleep onset panic attacks, stomach pain, headaches, and a general desire to choke the living shit out of anyone who crosses me in the tiniest degree unless they happened to come out of my body (ie I use all my residual patience and coping skills up with the three kids – adults be damned to HELL).

The only things I’m trying that seem to help / encourage my baby to go back to sleep are to keep the room extremely quiet and dim (no lights for feeding, no nappy change unless poo is involved) and to bundle her pretty tightly in a muslin. Maybe half the time, this, combined with a lying-down breastfeed, does the trick and she’ll go back off sometime before 5am until 7 or 7:30. This is good and we approve of it, oh yes we do, especially as her big sisters, who get up at 6:30 – 7, tootle along to the kitchen and make themselves breakfast without waking me (and usually without breaking anything in the process, you just have to turn a blind eye to the mild cereal spillage).

Of course, the other half the time, it doesn’t work at all. So I’m not claiming the magic bullet here. Gah…!

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tiff May 3, 2009 at 9:32 pm

Sending you good sleep vibes for you and your gorgeous little man. I can send them to you because Ivy and Noah don’t want them.

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Barbara May 4, 2009 at 6:17 am

Pooh. That sounds like crap to me. I would advise building a sound proof pod in the garden, putting Amy and Isaac into it at 6pm and going to fetch them out of it at 8am the next morning. You probably need to express some milk and leave some biscuits but apart from that it should be fine.

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Joyce-Anne May 4, 2009 at 12:11 pm

Oh, that’s terrible news about your camera! I sincerely hope that Isaac cooperates and goes back to sleeping and being delicious.

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em.s May 4, 2009 at 4:10 pm

we have a 3 month old. i guess we have all that wonder, and sleeplessness to look forward to huh?

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river May 4, 2009 at 5:24 pm

LOL at Barbara’s comment. But it could work….

Jenni May 4, 2009 at 10:42 pm

oh, gosh, i hope it’s just a growth spurt and he’s back to sleeping sometime soon. take care.

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talina May 5, 2009 at 12:30 pm

Awe, such a sweet post. Hopefully you get you sleep wish soon!

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Bec May 9, 2009 at 8:33 am

Oh wow, that sounds almost identical to this morning for us! Erin’s been awake since 4:30, but instead of smiling she just whined. When I gave up and got up at 6:30 she watched TV for a while and then pulled my camera off the table *sigh*

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gorillabuns May 10, 2009 at 11:09 am

is it strange that I still (after 4 weeks since his death) keep waking up to think i have to feed my son?

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Veronica May 10, 2009 at 8:16 pm

@ gorillabuns (((hugs)))

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